Blaine Larson – ‘How Do You Get That Lonely?’
This song gives me chills threw my entire body when I listen to it and read the lyrics
It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger’s football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on his bedroom floor
There’ll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they’ll lay him ‘neath the stone
How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin’ no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely, and nobody know
Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say, “I love you son”?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?
I’m not blamin’ anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight’s 20/20, but I still don’t understand
How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin’ no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely, and nobody know
It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger’s football score.
The Topic of Suicide hits close to home with me
The song, How do you get that LONLEY!! Sums it up. He asked WHY someone 18 years old committed suicide. He has a girl and with love in his life, but chose no life at all, over the life he had. Blaine asked about what caused these extreme actions, with a huge ‘?’ Mark…it’s because we are not seeing mental illness for the truth of what it is.
A good way to explain, recently found a music video on YouTube, The Artist is Blaine Larsen; ‘How Do you get That lonely’.
Linkin-Park Chester Bennington
Typically Linkin Park was not my taste in music, until I heard this song. ‘Numb’ I can and have listened to it on a loop, over and over. The lyrics about feeling nothing, others expectation’s of US… I like ‘Castle of Glass’ and ‘Roads Untraveled’ This song touches my soul, and is one of my favorites.
Close To Home
Since my early teens, around age 12 – 13 is when the depression really started. I’m Bipolar 2 with Baseline Depression with suicidal Tendencies. I move to Plano Texas age 14, in 1984, During Plano’s Teen suicide capital era. I was a teenager fighting my own demons of depression/suicidal desires and moved to where teen suicide was almost an epidemic.
Angry for surviving accident
Age 13, I was struck by a car while riding a 10-speed bicycle that should have killed me. When I awoke the next morning, part of me was angry i woke up at all.
Drag Racing Suicide Attempt
The Year 1989, age 19, I spent the year illegal Drag-racing in hopes of having a high-speed accident. When I was winning every race, found a natural driving skill. This was unacceptable, so I added drinking & Drugs to counter my incredible talent for driving fast cars. I was angry every morning as races ended and the sunrise came. A sunrise i didn’t want to see. A summer doing this every weekend, racing drunk and high…
Prozac Suicide Attempt
Circumstances lead to my admitted myself to a psychiatric Hospital age 19. Two years being on Prozac, one weekend i decided to get drunk and commit suicide, Friday night & Saturday night. It was a cold emotionless decision, God made an Angel named Amanda, to stop me.
Death by Security Officer
The Path then led to a career in security for from 1994 – 2008. Always asking for nights, working many high crime areas. When the sun was setting as i was heading into the city to work. i expected to be in the morgue when sunrise came the next morning. I was wanting to give my life, to maybe save an innocent person, giving my death some meaning, hero saving the day, buried with honors.
The September 11th 2008 accident
This concussion ended my life as I knew it. A 2nd time being struck by a car while on a bicycle. Surviving this wreck, stopped my wanting to die. God hit me with a car and ended my life, as I knew it…When I woke up, looked up at God and said “Ok, I give up trying to get myself killed.”
God won’t let me Die until He’s Done with me
This accident was God’s way changing the direction of my life. God put a lot work into guiding me on my journey., and wants my book written. To help save lives, preventing suicides.
Find a Reason not to kill yourself…
Had I succeeded in killing myself, or getting myself killed by accident, The journal would never been written, and you able to read it.