This will be a very interesting to the Psychology World. I have known/felt that ‘One Day’ I will write a book about my life, my Destiney has always been to write about my Life. When I studied psychology and Sociology in High School & 2-years of Community College psychology major Freshman/Sophomore. I was on a career track to become a trained psychologist, except I was NOT pursuing psychology for a lifetime career. I was studying to understand my own depression/suicidal tendencies, after years of psychotherapy Did NOT help me.
I studied psychology so when I wrote my autobiography, I would be able to talk about my own mental illnesses. Hoping something can be learned from my writings. I am expecting my story to be read and studied.
I then quit school and spent 2 decades working as a Security Officer, turning down several promotion’s to stay working ‘in the field’ I have enough psychology education to understand ‘Therapist’s can’t turn it off at home’ syndrome. 2 decades watching and observing people, being a floater I found myself experiencing all kinds of races and religious people. Like King Author, dressing as a commoner to walk amongst his people and not be seen.
As educated as most psychologists, I am NVUS for you studying this story. Entering ‘Jason’s World’ sounds gimmickee, except it is a fact. This writing takes the reader into my world, more into my brain, and emotions. With a trained psychologist tour guide making very specific points about topics and observations.
This Journal is unlike anything read before. A book written to the psychology world, written in a way that Talks to it directly.
1st First Topic to Study
Why Didn’t I Snap?
I have family history that compares to many serial killers. A fact I find disturbing. A Father/son relationship that should have ended with a father dead and son in prison, a cycle that began age 11. I was given the skills to hunt and kill, enough rage to compare to the ‘Hulk’ that should have ended ‘Badly’ Instead I used it to protect people.
2nd Second Topic to Study
Progression of ‘God Talk’
The progression of ‘The God Talk’. There is a time period of writing ‘Notes’ for a year and half that showed very little God Talk. The 3 Introduction’s showed talking of ‘God’ and ‘Neon Signs’ some, but it was more ‘God Light’. When June 7th, God have me a thought of ‘My being one of God’s Angels’, I was searching for the meaning of my life, then with that thought, everything about my life “Suddenly came into Focus!” From June 7th thru the 7-months of writing, I was unraveling my life in my head. During the 7-month long creative writing session, I was putting puzzle pieces together in my head.
The God talk. I would write something that would make me stop, shake my head, mutter ‘Cant believe you want me to write that. Then ask, “God, Don’t you think we have enough already?” God responded each time with an emphatic ‘NO!” The God talk led me to compare myself to Moses & Noah. I shake my head at God.
3rd Third Topic to Study
I was given a top notch education, family money, career path towards being a politician, ‘America’s First “Honest” politician’, or corporate lawyer. Learned ‘Shotokan Karate’ with a physical disability, childhood being bullied, to career working nights in dangerous city, making minimal money being a public servant, by choice!